Thursday, July 06, 2006
Today was like the official first day of the new term, since before this, it's all exams. I don't like it. But it's alright. There's less than half a year left, and then I'll never have to see some people again.
(Is it spiteful on my part to think so? It sounds so, but if you know the situation, maybe you'll understand.)
PE today was nothing more than taking height and weight. Those height measurements are never accurate. I'm 167cm, according to the height ruler at home, and that one should be accurate, because the ruler is like 180cm and it's stuck to the ground.
In school, sometimes I'm 164cm, 165cm, 166cm. Today, I was 166cm.
I gained weight!Yeah, 2.7kg to be exact. I'm having mixed feelings about it, truth be told. While I'm inching closer to what is technically my ideal weight, I have a bad feeling that it's all in the wrong places, stored as fat. But I'm an okay weight, so I'm fine with the weight gain overall. And it's not stopping me from eating non-stop.
So I should go to the gym, at least if I gain weight from gaining muscle, it's good.
And have abs! I'm going crazy since I saw that 8Days cover with Zoe Tay's abs. She's so hot, and she's like twice my age, maybe more. I want those abs too!
(Go on laugh, but I'm allowed to dream. But let me get to my main point.)
Sometime after PE, a friend of mine was saying that she's happy to have gained 4kg since the last time, and she "feels healthier now". And she's not one of stick-thin girls who desperately need to gain weight. She's a nice healthy weight. When I heard her say that she's happy about gaining weight, I was like, "Wow! That's rare! Why can't more girls be like that?"
Seriously, a lot of the anorexics and bullimics are really of healthy weight, many underweight even. Just why do they think they're fat? Hello, woman, wake up!
And there's always exercise. Why starve, or throw up?
I don't understand.
And later in the day, I was reflecting: what my friend said, I thought it's beautiful. Beautiful because it's rare. But shouldn't people be like that?
In past eras, gaining weight was a good thing. It meant that you're blessed, you're healthy, you're well-off. Does it still mean the same today? Well, it does, to most people. But why do so many girls of my age group think otherwise?
So has society degenerated?
About this, I'm partly influenced by CK. He's always saying that society's standards has dropped. Doing something that is supposed to be done, becomes doing something good, because the standard has fallen.
Take school for example. (This is CK's example by the way, which I think is a very good one.) A particular student goes to school everyday, and never ever plays truant. He is never late, and always hands in every assignment. He pays attention in lectures and tutorials. He may or may not be clever, but he's hardworking.
And so you think, wow, he's such a good student. (Some of you may think he's a freak, but that's besides the point.) But is he? Isn't a student supposed to do all that in the first place?
There's another example: public display of affection. Surely you've seen one of those couples before, those who just can't keep their hands off each other on the train, at the bus interchange, at MacDonald's... And CK's forever saying, "See, society's standards have fallen, but that doesn't mean that we should be like that."
And when he most recently said that, which was I think was yesterday, I replied, "But then do you want to adhere to the standards of societies of centuries ago? Back then, men and women weren't allowed to touch each other in public at all. Yet you're okay with holding hands. So whose rules do you want to follow? Shouldn't we move on?"
Should we move on? After all, pointing out that the standards of society has fallen isn't going to raise the standard again. So shouldn't we just get over it and move on? (Damn, that sounded familiar, but it so wasn't intentional.)
But what if we are moving on into degredation?
♥ The lights faded at
6:03 pm
