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Monday, November 20, 2006

Oh damn it I think I'm going through some sort of early-life crisis. And this speculation alone worries me because imagine what would happen to me when I hit an actual mid-life crisis.

I have lived 18+ years doing almost nothing!

Upon realisation of this fact, I do... nothing. What can I do? Ideally I would like to jump onto a plane heading towards some mountain, and then sit up there and do some soul-searching, and then hop to Africa to adopt a couple of babies, and then come back here and feel more... complete?

Which won't happen, because I don't have the money to start all this.

But most because I don't know whether I will really feel more complete after doing all that.

Someone help me, this early-life crisis is absurd! I'm only eighteen and I haven't even gotten any kicks out of being a teenager.

And one more thing. I know I'm selfish, and I keep reminding myself. But it's not helping me to become less selfish. Let's all face it, I think I'll remain this way for quite some time, but at least I don't pretend to be anything else.

And I'm getting more confused as I type. I think I'll stop here.

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