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Saturday, January 20, 2007

If I could just think of a word to describe how I feel right now. It's a confusing mix of frustration, anger, sadness, hurt, regret and even confusion itself. I have a desperate need to pour it all out to a listening ear. Yet it seems that it is during times like these, when you feel so much more alone than you are alone.

Am I making sense? It's like, I'm upset and I need a listening ear. But because it isn't there, I need it so much more. But this really is a secondary problem, in every sense of the word.

I can't seem to stop being selfish. And because of this, I've hurt myself and I've hurt other people. Time and again, I've forgotten to remind myself not to take people for granted.

I think I'll stop here. Not like it will really change things anyway.

♥ The lights faded at 12:36 am